When the nurses pointed this out to me, I frowned and said, yes but it is not my last intravenous infusion, because I will be turning up here every 3 weeks for 9 months to have Herceptin.
It was then I realised that my practical side was overwhelming the side of me that should have been saying HOORAY and THANK GOD that I have, six months to the day since my surgery, finished this nightmare experience. Of course I realise that it is never really over. But 'active treatment' as they call it, is now at an end.
In the last half year I have:
- gained a new and deep respect for the medical professionals in Melbourne.
- thought a lot about life and death.
- lost all my hair, most of my eyebrows and some of my eyelashes and gained my freckles back.
- read 43 books.
- confronted head on my very worst fear: getting cancer young.
- spent a lot of time watching the children play and realised how much I still have to teach them.
- continued to work at about half capacity which has been frustrating but well worth it.
- felt so much gratitude for the support and wishes of family, friends, strangers, blog friends, acquaintances, the guy in the coffee shop, the stray business person I meet with who remarks on my 'lovely haircut', the mail man, the lovely girl in our local toyshop, the woman at Mecca Cosmetica, people in the oncology suite, the carpark man, the friend I haven't seen for 7 years who lives in Hong Kong who sent me the sweetest email last week and on it goes.
* Baked a cake to celebrate:
Recipe from Delicious, a magazine which has really grown on me. So much more down to earth than Gourmet Traveller or Donna Hay. It has cornflour in it and so is very very light and fluffy.
* Bought this book online (really cannot believe how cheap Book Depository is):
I wrote about Nigel Slater's memoir here. I have a small crush on this man. I would love to cook for him.
* Made a 6 point plan for the next 6 months (more on that soon).
* Bought a painting. Yes it's dark and moody and that is why I love it. By the Tasmanian Turner. (It is of Bass Strait).
* Picked some of these for floating in vases. It really annoys me the way camellias don't survive in vases on their own. We don't have as many picking flowers in our garden as I would like.
This to me looks very like the Chanel camellia...
* Ate some macaroons which I buy at La Belle Miette
In case you were wondering these flavours are strawberry and vanilla and violet and blueberry. He also does an amazing Pimms and pomegranate version.
Isn't life fantastic? So much to enjoy.